Senior farewell: Kalsey Butler
Published: Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Updated: Wednesday, February 13, 2013 13:02
I can vividly remember my first day at Martin. I was terrified that I wasn’t going to find my classes because the campus and buildings were so big. I was extremely nervous that the Professor would say my name wrong, and I would have to actually speak to correct them. (It’s pronounced Kelsey. I know; it’s weird.)
I thought everyone looked smarter than me and more mature. I felt like there was no way I was ever going to be able to find a place for myself with all of these people who seemed so much better.
I didn’t know what to do or where to even start. There were times I felt like giving up, because I thought I wasn’t good enough and that I wouldn’t succeed. But somehow, I pushed on through those classes that made me burst into tears and just collapse after the exams and I’m a better person for them. They made me work hard and realize that everything in life isn’t always going to be easily handed to me.
When I think about graduating and going into the “real world” (because obviously we’ve been living in the “fake world”), I feel the same things I felt when I first got to Martin: nervousness, inadequacy, fear, anxiety, but also determination. I am determined to, not succeed, necessarily, but to do things I love and to fill my life with people I love. I want to do things that make me happy and to give people some happiness in return. That’s what I am determined to do.
I have learned so many things during my time at Martin, not all good, not all bad. I’ve learned that I am passionate about my major. I’ve learned that sometimes you have to grit your teeth and do things you don’t always want to do. I’ve learned that it is a necessity to have an umbrella in your car, at all times, because the second it rains, it pours. I’ve learned to become a more thoughtful and considerate person. I’ve learned to be a more responsible individual. I’ve learned that there are times when you have to take life seriously, and there are times you just have to laugh and smile. I’ve learned that there is goodness in everyone. I have learned to be me.
Martin, as I sit here about to cry now, I want you to know that I will always have a place for you in my heart. My life has been better for coming to this university. I will always think fondly of how beautiful you are in the fall when the leaves start falling from the trees and collecting on the ground. I will cherish the times of playing in the snow in the Quad. There were professors here who have helped me open my mind to new ideas and possibilities and I will miss them terribly. Martin, I will never forget how you have given me a place to grow, a place to make mistakes, and a place to call my home. I will miss you.
On a final note, I want to say thank you to my husband, Wes. Thank you for staying up and making note cards with me. Thank you for staying patient with me even when I got frustrated with the material. Thank you for wishing me good luck on every single test I have taken. Lastly and most importantly, thank you for constantly giving me support and never letting me give up. You have helped me achieve my dream.
So to my graduating classmates, I want to congratulate you. I wish that you all only know happiness, success, and fortune in your lives. Go make a difference in the world. Good luck.